Hannah Telluselle 
~ create beauty between people ~

This past month, I've been working with a freelance assignment for an American business doing market research by phone in Sweden. I simply answered an ad on Instagram about making a study and was called a couple of days later. While as so often, the pre-set commission and salary was a little unrealistic, I gave it a go and got paid. Not only was the money very welcome after a rough winter with no social security to rely on, but it also gave me a blessing in disguise. I've wor

Just like so many others, I too have had to deal with racing thoughts and trouble falling asleep, whenever I'm under attack by either Swedish authorities or my enemy, but I've developed a system to let go. Since I haven't had a permanent home for many years, my sleep is sacred. Not to be disturbed. Never to be questioned. (Unless in an emergency.) I have ever since my teenage years known that I perform the best when I get 9 hours of uninterrupted sleep. I can cope with only 7

Today I read an Instagram post from a woman, who just like me, is tired of how women become questioned and even often assumed to be at fault, when they report various forms of assaults and stalking by men, rather than the men being held accountable, including in the use of our language. This is something I can totally relate to, as I sit here with a still unresolved case of severe stalking including both home intrusions and computer intrusions, for more than 16 years! Somethi

It's now been exactly three years ago since I first moved into my current apartment in a small suburb to Stockholm, Sweden. And just as I these last couple of days, have enjoyed the sensation of spring approaching in the air, I've noticed how little memories pop up from last year - from here. Walking by the lake, that still is frozen, but now in warm sunlight, had me thinking of last summer laying by the beach. Standing on the balcony and watching the beautiful sunset that no

I noticed how soft the ground felt under my feet suddenly, cushioning my steps, Such a difference from pulsing through the snow or gliding on the slippery ice. All the paths have been covered for months. I sighed with relief. Now spring is on its way! With air warmer to breathe, more hours of daylight, and louder songs from the birds. A wild bunny came out after sunset on the grass, now visibly green again. What has been hiding and sleeping, slowly awakens again. The sunset a

On a physical note, I've had a light menopause to deal with. Mine lasted for about 3 1/2 years between 2022 and 2025 and I never had any hot flashes, nor did I feel any specific changes to my mood. I had some sporadic bleedings, that I got help with to regulate. And I've experiened some dryness. I don't attribute my weight gain to this completely, since I've been stopped from eating, sleeping and exercising physically in my normal way for 2 1/2 years through the Swedish state

When I started taking classes in Isadora Duncan dance about little more than ten years ago, I learned to become aware of, and strive to, lead with my solar plexus. This is the center for our soul and our shine, for our essence and our inner child, while our mana sits in our hair, teeth and bones. It's also referred to as the chakra for our power, just like our energy center in general is below our naval in Chinese Medicine, referred to as Dan Tien . Is it then weird that I'v

One of the hardest things about coming back to Sweden, besides not getting a permanent home of my own unintruded and not getting a job for all these years, is the complete uninterest in my experiences. Not only, that I haven't been interviewed in the press and media as expected and what would be self-evident after both writing books, reporting to the UN and various cases, besides my continued Hula-dancing here and business plans, but even more so, none of my old friends and a

This bothers me. When I was an ICE-detainee in Honolulu HI 2011-12, I wasn't the only Swede. Another woman, ten years younger than me, short hair and with a severe mental illness, suddenly showed up and was detained too, in December 2011 I believe. She remained in custody until at least April 2012, before she was deported to Sweden, not appealing their decision in court. Yet, her release date states Nov 16th, 2011, before she even was in the United States. How is that possibl

When I went for a walk today, in the forest across the street where I live in Stockholm, Sweden, I noticed how slippery it was. Even with just snow covering the ground, it must have thawed and then frozen again, while being packed together through the weight of the many sleighs and skis, that people use here. My feet started gliding about a half a dozen times, it became ridiculous, while grateful that I didn't fall. I tried to see a pattern. I realized two things: First, it w

I feel offended when someone thinks of me as a fan, especially if someone calls me that. It might feel worse because it often is someone stalking me with a fake profile since many years, or like recently, even with a fake email, pretending to be a celebrity "thanking me for my support". What support? You think I have the money and the time to watch movies and/or TV all the time or that I even would remember the names of the actors? That I even would care to? I might enjoy som

Have you ever heard or read something by someone you like and respect that sounds right, yet you feel you're not quite sure you agree? The more divided and polarised our opinions become expressed, the more important it is to stay both nuanced, critical and devoted to our own truth and experiences. This is for example why I follow both CNN and Fox News - to make sure I get both sides. And it's also why I go and check my own direct preferred sources to check if both the news an

The more specialised content we display on our social media profiles, the more aware we must be of it not being completely congruent with the person behind it. What I mean by that, is that there are so much more to a person than what he or she is showing online. Yet, we can't help but evaluate a person's whole personality based on what we see. We assume that someone is a certain way, in all areas of life, all the time, the same as he or she describes her/himself. This is of c

While some changes happen in small steps, some simply requires making a firm decision and sticking with it. Some changes are initiated by ourselves and some encouraged by others or even forced upon us. And some comes as the result of changes in our environment and culture in society as a whole. When looking back to see how I've changed and hopefully improved, I think of these examples: Letting go of horoscopes - I used to be a huge fan of horoscopes and astrology, even subsc

Watching the many protests against ICE recently in the United States, moves me deeply. Watching their violence too, because life isn't black and white. Would there be so many so called illegal immigrants, if everyone were sponsored correctly? Whose fault is it then, but the American public's own? It is so hard to see, because it stirs up so many memories, both good and bad, so many emotions, both loving and fearful. How could it go so far? How could an ICE-officer get so upse

When I first received acupuncture and learned Qigong in 1995, I was introduced to Chinese Medicine and the school behind connecting our organs and emotions, to the seasons and natural elements. This has helped me find a holistic approach to healing, which I've used throughout my life, especially after my mother passed away. Here is an old photo of me and her from 23 years ago: It’s said that our breathing can be constructed due to a build up of unresolved grief and stress, wh

Two days ago, I drew a card from my Medicine Woman deck for this new year, to think about and improve for myself. And this came up - Ace of Bowls (Cups in traditional Tarot)! This to me, means to open my heart again for love, which when I think about it, I really haven't this last year. It made me think about that I need to make time for love. My schedule that I live by, doesn't reallly have any available slots for dating and socializing. Some of it is my own decision, that

I've been wanting to start my own podcast for quite some time. At first, I was going to do one about Creativity and interview various people working in creative professions to share their process, inspiration and journey whether in Swedish or English, but since I didn't get any response from the studio where I asked to sit, I have to put this on hold for now. However, I've come up with a plan for my social media 2026 for Telluselle Living, based on choosing days we celebrate

When I grew up, we moved a lot in Sweden, which forced me to change school and friends several times. And it seemed like every time I finally had settled and felt included, I was forced to move and change again. My dad bought me a black pet bunny, the first time I had to leave my bestie, and this became a recurring gift. While I later in life as a grown up began having bunnies again as pets, it obviously doesn't compare. Especially, when in Sweden most grown up friendships ar

Are you tired of trying to make promises and New Year’s resolutions that you can’t keep or not follow through on? Whether this is due to your own busyness, laziness or even forgetfulness, or due to others’ imposed conditions that you can’t do much about, I have a solution that you can hold onto. For several decades, I’ve instead of making a promise or a New Year’s resolution, opted for a specific word, theme or topic that represents a trait or something I’d like to improve or